Summer has been great so far---vacation to Panama City, the reading of as many books as I want, lots of cooking for family and visiting--all things that I love. As soon as July 1 comes I think, "This is all going to end soon." This will be the fall of my 30th year and there have always been butterflies and thoughts of "Can I do this again?" and as soon as school starts I'm back into it again and doing fine. But, this morning I've had a heaviness and a weariness just thinking of doing it again. Can I take the stress of children (1st grade) who seem to have never been disciplined in their 6 years of life? Can I take having administrators listening to me (and others) and then saying "It can't be that bad?" I worry for my health. I take good care of myself, but my blood pressure rises when I teach. (I do take medication and check myself often.) Am I just burnt out beyond help or is this normal for a 30-year veteran? I must teach 5 more years to get my full retirement and I'm continually taking classes so I can refresh myself and go up on the salary scale. Will I make it 5 more years?